One Year

Well it's exactly one year today that I started this blog not knowing at the time that the focus would be my journey to be a mom....

It is hard to believe that I am about 12 weeks pregnant now and all is well-- thank G-d. We had our nuchal translucency scan today and everything measured completely normal. The doctor said it all looked great, but the final results will come in next week, after they have the blood work done.

We saw our little so alert, moving and wiggling around, with a normal heartbeat. We saw everything-- from its eyes, jaw bones, nose!, legs, tush, arms... I just felt so proud of our little for staying strong and growing so well.

I have been so nervous for today, having had my last ultra sound two weeks ago, not knowing what we'd see today. And I thank G-d that so far everything is fine. We have a regular obgyn appointment next Wednesday and hopefully the NT blood work will be in by then. That is the next milestone.

I haven't written much because I have been feeling so crappy. I am nauseous 24 hours a day, I have been throwing up anywhere from one to five times a day. I even threw up at the ultra sound facility today. I haven't touched any meat, fish, and vegetables in over a month. I am living on salty crackers, cheese sandwiches, and some fruit. Oh and ice cream (need that calcium!). I was loving pizza a few weeks ago, now the thought of anything with tomato sauce makes me want to puke. I gag at smells all the time. I walk in the street with my hand to my nose, especially when I walk by the street food vendors. If I eat a few bites, my stomach sticks out a lot. But otherwise I don't show with clothes on, unless you really look-- there's a little bump.

Tomorrow night begins the Jewish holiday of Yom Kippur-- the most serious and important holiday; the day of atonement. I will be praying hard this year for G-d to continue to bless us with a healthy pregnancy and keep our little safe and healthy in there. I will also be praying as I do every night for all of you out there on your journeys; that you should be blessed with a healthy child very soon and we should all have a year of health, happiness and fertility.