So Far So Good...

We saw our little today -almost 9 weeks with a strong heart. We also managed to see the head and the little arm bud moving. It must have laying on its side. So cute! So relieved! I am so proud of our little. Next step is the nuchal scan in 2 weeks which will tell us the risk for Downs Syndrome, heart problems and other chromosomal abnormalities. I am turning 35 in October, so a bit nervous about that, but for now everything is exactly where it should be.

I am still nauseous all the time, and I have now thrown up 4 times in the last 10 days. Twice yesterday. I hate food and I hate odors like the scent of cleaning sprays. But the truth is, I really don't mind any of this, and I am still loving it all.

I am just so incredibly grateful that I am in this place right now-- after all the struggles and pain, I don't think I ever imagined getting to a good place. I keep waiting for the bad to come and I pray so hard it won't. So far G-d is hearing my prayers and I hope He continues to keep our little safe, healthy and growing strong. I have to admit, it is hard for me to let go and be completely happy. I am so scared that my happiness will be interrupted just like it has so many times in my life. But logically, I know this is no way to live-- I just need my heart to pay attention to my logic....

I am praying for all of you out there on your journey, and you are always in my thoughts. Trust me, even though I am in this place right now, I haven't forgotten the difficult journey it took to get here- it stays with me and maybe that's a good thing. I never want to get cocky and I never want to take anything for granted. Every moment that I am carrying this healthy child is truly a blessing.

Well I guess I'm going to continue being a lump on the couch this weekend, although some friends want to get together for dinner (ewe food!) and my 18 year old sister is leaving for Israel for a year this weekend! I'm going to really miss her. She is the only person other than Dave that I have been talking to about this pregnancy in great detail. It will be hard not to have that on a regular basis. But I also know that it's going to an amazing experience for her, as I spent a year there too and loved it.

Anyhoo, I guess that's it for now.

Please G-d keep out little growing strong and healthy everyday.