Say What!?

For the past two months I have been a "friendly visitor." Through an organization I volunteer to visit an elderly person that I was matched up with after extensive background checks and interviews. Well, two months ago I was matched up with Claire, a 92 year old woman who also happens to live a few blocks away from me. I usually visit with her every week and we chat for about an hour and half. She's lovely; funny, spunky, independent, and smart. She is a former ballet dancer, turned bookkeeper, and was married for over 60 years with three children. She lives alone (her daughter lives in the same building) and does her own laundry, shopping, gets weekly manicures- really inspiring to me.

Anyway I haven't seen her since I found out that I'm preggars and I haven't told anyone except for our parents and siblings (our siblings' spouses don't even know). Well within the first five minutes of my visit last night, Claire says in her thick New York accent "are you pregnaaaant?". I sat there, stuttering, not know what to say. I was so caught off guard and I blurted out "how do you know?" And she said she could just tell (now, I am fairly slim, don't have a belly, so that wouldn't have been it)... I told her it is VERY early and she right away told me not to talk about it and not to tell anyone. And that was it. She changed the subject. But of course it stuck in my head and I wasn't sure if I was okay with her knowing. But then I realized this is a 92 year old woman who I barely know, so what if she knows?--- it won't change anything. And maybe she'll be a good luck charm this time around. It was strange I must say, maybe it's her wise old age that can sense things like this. I have no idea...

On another note, I have still been waking up at 3-4am every morning. Since last night I have also been needing to burp, like there's a gas bubble in my throat and I just want to burp or try to burp. Is this related to anything? I don't know-- is this indigestion? I have no idea, as I never really had this before. It's not very comfortable but I'm not complaining....

We are sleeping over my brother's and his family's tonight and then heading to Atlantic City for the night on Sunday- taking Monday off. Yay.

I'm still nervous and panicky about things, but I also know there's nothing I can do at this point. It is all in G-d's hands and I just have to keep praying that this all works out-- for all of us...