Ho Hum...
I'm glad the weekend is over.
We celebrated mom's birthday and mother's day and then as we were headed to Dave's mom's festivities, we got a call that his dad was rushed to the hospital. Turns out he has congestive heart failure. BUT-- he's fine now and will be leaving today. It just sucks for him because he has Parkinson's and he's only 67. I feel so sad for him knowing that this is how he is going to spend the rest of his life-- in an assisted living facility, barely walking, barely speaking. i think to myself, the only thing he has left is his family, his children.... Children are everything...
I met an 85 year old toothless woman at services this weekend named Beatrice. She told me her only son had passed away a year ago and she was so sad. She then looked me in the eye and told me to have children, to have three children, and she made me promise her I would. My eyes welled up with tears-- if she only knew.... I was struck that she told me this, and I hoped in that moment that G-d had sent her to me as a sign. Maybe this is His way of telling me it will happen for me.
I feel like we have been on such a long break from trying. I'm on day 9 of my cycle and we still can't try this month, we have to wait for one more period to come. So at this point it looks like we'll be trying mid-June. Gotta free up the calendar, as my life revolves around my fertility. Right now I just want to see that smiley face on my ovulation test this weekend, so I can relax and know my body is working normally...
Three things to look forward to:
1. Meeting with social worker tonight for an interview to volunteer to read to the blind in a nursing home once every two weeks.
2. Meeting with Dr. Chang (at the acupuncture center) tomorrow and discuss what's happened since I started my acupuncture treatments in January.
3. Our trip to DC for Memorial Day weekend to visit old friends and just get away...(and avoid family-kid bbq that weekend.)
Think positive.
We celebrated mom's birthday and mother's day and then as we were headed to Dave's mom's festivities, we got a call that his dad was rushed to the hospital. Turns out he has congestive heart failure. BUT-- he's fine now and will be leaving today. It just sucks for him because he has Parkinson's and he's only 67. I feel so sad for him knowing that this is how he is going to spend the rest of his life-- in an assisted living facility, barely walking, barely speaking. i think to myself, the only thing he has left is his family, his children.... Children are everything...
I met an 85 year old toothless woman at services this weekend named Beatrice. She told me her only son had passed away a year ago and she was so sad. She then looked me in the eye and told me to have children, to have three children, and she made me promise her I would. My eyes welled up with tears-- if she only knew.... I was struck that she told me this, and I hoped in that moment that G-d had sent her to me as a sign. Maybe this is His way of telling me it will happen for me.
I feel like we have been on such a long break from trying. I'm on day 9 of my cycle and we still can't try this month, we have to wait for one more period to come. So at this point it looks like we'll be trying mid-June. Gotta free up the calendar, as my life revolves around my fertility. Right now I just want to see that smiley face on my ovulation test this weekend, so I can relax and know my body is working normally...
Three things to look forward to:
1. Meeting with social worker tonight for an interview to volunteer to read to the blind in a nursing home once every two weeks.
2. Meeting with Dr. Chang (at the acupuncture center) tomorrow and discuss what's happened since I started my acupuncture treatments in January.
3. Our trip to DC for Memorial Day weekend to visit old friends and just get away...(and avoid family-kid bbq that weekend.)
Think positive.
posted by Here I am @ 11:57 AM
2 Comments:
At 3:19 PM ,
Christy said...
I'm sorry to hear about your father in law. It is so hard to watch our parents lose their quality of life. Last summer my dad suffered a freaky fall and broke his neck. He is now a quadriplegic and it is awful to know that he won't have the kind of retirement that he worked so hard for. Even more difficult has been the effects on my mom.
I like how you put such a positive spin on what the woman told you about having 3 kids. You know I will hold a good thought for you!
I know what you mean about planning your life around your fertility. I am guilty of that too, much to my husband's frustration. I'm going to try to curtail that a little bit. I don't think my doctor will make me wait to try to get pregnant. It is such a long shot and he said now is the perfect time.
Have you read The Infertility Cure? I have found it is a really good resource to compliment my acupuncture treatments, which I start up again tomorrow.
At 7:53 AM ,
Anonymous said...
Sorry to hear about FIL. It is so hard to watch those we love go through the aging process. I know it is part of the circle of life and that we will all go through it someday but it doesn't make it any easier to accept. My thought are with you.
On the other hand, I think that the old lady was a sign from God. I am a firm believer in Angels on earth and maybe she was an Angel sent here to help lay your mind at ease and give your spirit some much needed rest! I pray that that is this case!
Talk to you soon!
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