A Calm (Temporary) Wave...
I have been feeling really calm lately. I think the first week of the two week wait is always like a "vacation" for me. By next week I know my nerves will kick in and I'll be a wreck- waiting, wondering, grabbing my boobs, looking for those precious signs-- holding onto whatever hope I have in me.
But for now-- all is calm. I am enjoying my life.
Today my sister graduates high school! She is 18. Yes, we are 16 years apart. I have a brother who is 31 too though. When I was 16, I came home from high school one day and my mom greets me at the door and tells me she is pregnant! Imagine being 16 and hearing this? I was thrilled but slightly grossed out-- I mean no teenager wants to know about their parents "doing it"-- right? Anyway-- she was 40 years old at the time and had not planned on having anymore children. Back then it wasn't as common for 40 year olds to be pregnant, so she was concerned and wasn't even sure if she'd keep it. Thankfully she did and I have a wonderful, beautiful sister who I love so much. But what's interesting is that when I told my RE about my mom having a child at 40 years old, he told me that would work well in my favor because fertility is usually passed on from your mom. Well-- we'll see about that.... My mom also told me it took her a year to get pregnant with me (she was 23 at the time though! which is a little different than being 34)... But anyway, I digress.
We have a full fun weekend ahead of us- Mets game tomorrow night, dinner with engaged friends on Saturday night (no chance of getting surprised pregnancy news there), cousin's birthday, and my family is coming over on Sunday and I am hosting a late brunch. Should all be fun.
But again-- I know me and I know I will be secretly panicking next week, but putting on a calm face and pretending I'm not counting the days... yeah right.
Leaving shortly for acupuncture, I'm addicted.
p.s. Thanks to everyone in blogland for leaving comments. It's so nice to know that people I have never met care and support me. In many ways I have felt more free and have been more myself around you all than to people in my real life. So thank you for this.
But for now-- all is calm. I am enjoying my life.
Today my sister graduates high school! She is 18. Yes, we are 16 years apart. I have a brother who is 31 too though. When I was 16, I came home from high school one day and my mom greets me at the door and tells me she is pregnant! Imagine being 16 and hearing this? I was thrilled but slightly grossed out-- I mean no teenager wants to know about their parents "doing it"-- right? Anyway-- she was 40 years old at the time and had not planned on having anymore children. Back then it wasn't as common for 40 year olds to be pregnant, so she was concerned and wasn't even sure if she'd keep it. Thankfully she did and I have a wonderful, beautiful sister who I love so much. But what's interesting is that when I told my RE about my mom having a child at 40 years old, he told me that would work well in my favor because fertility is usually passed on from your mom. Well-- we'll see about that.... My mom also told me it took her a year to get pregnant with me (she was 23 at the time though! which is a little different than being 34)... But anyway, I digress.
We have a full fun weekend ahead of us- Mets game tomorrow night, dinner with engaged friends on Saturday night (no chance of getting surprised pregnancy news there), cousin's birthday, and my family is coming over on Sunday and I am hosting a late brunch. Should all be fun.
But again-- I know me and I know I will be secretly panicking next week, but putting on a calm face and pretending I'm not counting the days... yeah right.
Leaving shortly for acupuncture, I'm addicted.
p.s. Thanks to everyone in blogland for leaving comments. It's so nice to know that people I have never met care and support me. In many ways I have felt more free and have been more myself around you all than to people in my real life. So thank you for this.
posted by Here I am @ 8:24 AM
4 Comments:
At 11:28 AM ,
Anonymous said...
Girl, I know all about panicking the last week of 2WW!!! TRUST ME!! If you need to freak out feel free to drop me a line, we all know I've been doing a lot of that myslef this week.
Have fun at the Mets game!! My DH would be so jealous, he loves baseball and to see the Mets would make his day!
Also, to answer your question, I did not use an OPK this cycle. I should have but honestly did not think I would need it. I figured my temps would be enoough to tell me but I guess maybe the Clomid messed them up some. Who knows? But, let me tell ya, next month (if I'm not PG), I will def. be using them.
Talk to you soon. Have fun.
At 11:40 AM ,
Christy said...
It's so good to hear from you! You have described the first week of the 2 week wait perfectly. During that week anything is possible and you are downright giddy. During the second week I would always go crazy once PMS symptoms appeared. Now, however, I can remember that when I did get pregnant I had the same PMS symptoms, so maybe this time will be better. Still waiting for the OPK surge, so there is a ways to go.
Have fun at the Mets game. We had a blast at the D-Backs game yesterday and will be at another on Saturday.
At 12:09 PM ,
Anns said...
I'm totally jealous that you get to be in the 2WW.. consider yourself even lucky to be allowed to try!
Have a great weekend!
At 1:25 PM ,
Christy said...
In answer to your question on my blog, my PMS symptoms post miscarriage were much more intense than any I experienced before. I can give more details, but I would prefer to email since not everybody who reads you comments may want to know! You can email me at ccrissie at aol dot com and I'll give you the whole scoop.
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