Three Weeks

Maya turned three weeks this week.

As much as I still miss being pregnant and going through that intensity of giving birth, I am trying to focus on the now and this beautiful little girl I get to raise.

She is changing everyday. Her eyes are still blue and I hope they don't change, as it seems she looks just like her dad except for the blue eyes which come from me. I want her to have a little part of me and if it's the eyes, I will gladly take that.

We have been doing "tummy time" everyday and today she lifted her head twice on her own while on her belly. I am so proud. I was cheering her on as she struggled with frustration to maneuver her little body. My Maya is a fighter and I love that quality.

On another note, the past two days I have noticed my milk supply seems to be dwindling. She seems to not be getting enough milk from my left breast and gets so frustrated-- I don't blame her! Then when I pump I am barely making 2oz. whereas last week I was making over 3 oz. in a 10 minute session. I haven't been drinking a lot of water and today started drinking more. Does anyone have any advice/tips? My doula suggested raspberry leaf tea and my pediatrician said two cups a day is fine. Anything else? I'm hoping my supply will get back to normal very soon. I'm not too worried as she is "going to the bathroom" after every feeding which I know is a good sign.

Other than that I am trying to get into some kind of groove. I am sleep deprived and get about three hours a day. Maya is a night owl and it's hard to get her to sleep in her bassinet. She loves to sleep in my arms, but after an hour, I'm ready to put her down. David helps but he needs sleep to function at work especially now that he is the bread winner. Weekends are great though since he helps more and I can sleep a little more. I have also been taking Maya out in her fancy stroller (my mother-in-law purchased the bugaboo frog stroller which half of the upper east side of NYC seems to have). She loves to take walks and falls into a peaceful sleep every time. I love how she looks in her little knitted hats and sweaters. She really is a doll. Our favorite activity though are the sponge baths. She loves loves loves having her hair washed. She puts her head back, closes her eyes and is so relaxed and so adorable, I want to eat her up. Last night David videotaped it and it is so cute to watch.

So this is my life. It is now 1:47am and David is walking around the apartment with Maya in her swaddle, in his arms, trying to get her to fall asleep. I never thought I would be in this "place" and well, here we are. Thank you G-d.