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I have been bleeding since Wednesday and last night experienced probably the most traumatic event of my life physically when I actually expelled the pregnancy.
Words cannot express the pain and fear I was going through in that moment. To see this "blob" in the toilet and knowing this would have been a life, my child, is so unbelievably horrible. Why couldn't it have stuck? After all that work, don't we deserve a heatlhy child?
I want to know when it will happen.
And now we have no choice but to start the work again- because let me tell you there is nothing fun about this. It has been struggle after struggle and then a horrible loss at the end.
Will it ever get better for us?
Words cannot express the pain and fear I was going through in that moment. To see this "blob" in the toilet and knowing this would have been a life, my child, is so unbelievably horrible. Why couldn't it have stuck? After all that work, don't we deserve a heatlhy child?
I want to know when it will happen.
And now we have no choice but to start the work again- because let me tell you there is nothing fun about this. It has been struggle after struggle and then a horrible loss at the end.
Will it ever get better for us?
posted by Here I am @ 7:32 AM
1 Comments:
At 1:55 PM ,
SnowCone said...
Dear Petals NYC - you had posted a comment on my blog a few months ago and I'm sorry I didn't get back to you sooner. I am SO sorry to hear about your great loss...I am not sure how long you've been trying, but I think there is a silver lining after all - you were able to get pregnant!! Are you going to have the embryo examined to see why you miscarried? Miscarriages are VERY common, as common as 50% of all pregnancies, the only thing is that nowadays we can detect pregnancies so early, so we hear more about them. I am so sorry for your loss and heartbreak, but all I can say is that 99.99% of all women who try to conceive do end up with a baby within five years. I know five years feels like a long time, but it's a small light at the end of the tunnel. My sister tried for 3 years, and after 8 months of insemination, when she finally gave up all hope, she got pregnant! So please hang in there, think positive, be good to yourself and believe me, it will happen!!!
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