Still Preggars

I am 39 weeks pregnant today--- we are getting soooooooo close!

Today at my weekly Dr. appointment he told me my cervix was soft and I am beginning to dilate! Hoorah! The plan is that if I go past my due date (April 6th), I will go in to the Dr's office the next day for a stress test to make sure the baby is still safe inside me and then, I will be induced on April 10th if I don't give birth before then. The Dr doesn't want me to go past 41 weeks. I'm okay with that-- as I am beyond excited to meet this person who has taken over my body!

My life is about to change in the next 10 days. This is a definite. Yet- my brain has not been able to accept it. I can't imagine it-- I can only fantasize about it. I think I am still afraid to accept it. I think I am afraid to believe that things might actually go smoothly and work out. I think my struggles to conceive are still so with me everyday- that I can't just let go of the fears and embrace the happiness that everyone else feels is going to happen.

I need to hold on to my faith, I know.

Yes I am beyond excited, yes I am bursting with gratitude. But in the end, right now I have to admit, I am scared.

Please please G-d keep our little safe, healthy and growing strong.

Waiting, waiting, waiting.....

Well I am 38 weeks and 2 days pregnant today. I am so ready to have this baby! I feel like I am just in the waiting phase now and the time seems to be d-r-a-g-g-i-n-g.....

I had my weekly Dr. appointment today and my cervix is still soft but no dilation. Boo. My blood pressure went up slightly from 110/70 to 120/70 but the doctor says that is still normal. We heard a healthy heartbeat and I didn't ask what the number was-- I am trying to just trust the Dr. and not ask for every single detail.

My little is still break dancing and moving around a lot. Sometimes my stomach is completely lop-sided-- it's soooo cooool! I know that there are women who didn't like being pregnant out there, but I have to say I have loved it. I really have. Despite the vomiting for the first 6 months, the heart burn, the now swollen hands, and dark brown nips, I have really loved it and every month that brought on a new change, has amazed me. It is truly a miracle.

Now all we need is to get this baby out!!!!

Well I decided to post a belly shot of me at 38 weeks. I know, it's huge!

Please G-d Keep our baby safe, growing healthy and strong...

6 Pounds 13 oz!

No no I haven't given birth yet! : )

But it is how much our "little" is weighing right now according to the fetal weight scan we had this week. I am 37 weeks and 4 days pregnant today!

All is looking great. We even saw a chubby thigh and the baby was "caressing the placenta" with his/her face as the technician put it. Too cute! I also had an internal exam and it looks like my cervix is starting to thin out which as the doctor put it, "things are starting to happen!". YOWZA!!!!! I am more excited than scared right now as I am soooooooooo looking forward to meeting this baby. He/she has literally taken over my body.

Luckily most of my weight gain (about 30 pounds) has all been in the belly area, so everything else looks the same. I haven't worn my rings or watch in a month-- my hands are swollen and my finger tips are numb. I have major heartburn still and leg pain at night, but I don't even care. I love love love this baby and I am oooozing with gratitude.

Next week is my last week of work too-- it will be wierd not going back to work, as I plan to be a full time mom, something I always wanted to do. In time though I am sure I'll end up freelance writing or something... But yes, so looking forward to raising our little and I am thankful we can do that.

Anyway, I guess now we wait and wait and wait and hopefully very soon, I will get to meet this amazing gift.

Please please G-d keep our little healthy, safe and growing strong...

Tired & Excited

All is well here (thanks Gemini Girl for checking in).....

I have just been so tired and lazy.... I am 36 weeks and 3 days pregnant today-- yowza!!!!!!

I have been feeling my giant "little" moving like crazy and loving it- the movements are just so intense, I am woken up at night when I finally do fall asleep and my stomach just moves up and down on its own, it's so cool!

My legs get really crampy at night because sleeping on my side and putting all the weight of my body on one leg makes it really painful. I bought a "wedge" pillow that helps support my huge belly so that helps a lot. But between the sore legs, stiff fingers and a disco dancing baby I sleep about 3 hours a night. Yes, I know I will be sleeping less later on ; )

Saturday it was pouring rain here in NYC and Dave and I really needed to do some important errands like pick out a take home outfit (which the store is holding for us), buy me some new sneakers, and some other stuff. Given that we live in the city, I am a walker, so sometimes I forget that my body is not the same and I totally overdid it on Saturday, plus it was raining hard, which made it harder to maneuver. Long story short, I have been so run down since then, I haven't been at work these past two days, I feel like my body just needs rest. But tomorrow I'll return and hopefully make it through the day without falling asleep at my desk.

Sunday we had a hospital tour and yes, it freaked me out. I am actually going to be giving birth in one way or another. My brain just won't accept that for some reason and I can't picture it. I want to, but it doesn't seem like it will really happen. Will it really happen?

The last stop of the tour was the nursery and there were two 7 pound babies that had been born that day. What can I say, they were so beautiful, perfect, and I wanted to take them both home- but David said we couldn't. We will have our little to take home very soon (G-d willing). We will, right?

So that's life right now. Tomorrow I have my weekly Dr. appointment with an internal exam- sooooo looking forward to that part (not).

Please G-d, continue to keep our little safe, healthy and growing strong...