Happy First Birthday Maya!!!!

My baby is one year old today! Happy birthday Maya!!!!

I can't believe a year has gone by and she is one year old. ONE. What a cool age. A clean slate. An entire future ahead of her to do whatever she wants. Amazing.

It's been a year filled with life changes-- from experiencing childbirth which for a while didn't think was ever going to happen, to watching my baby stand and clap her hands and wiggle her tushy. It's been a year filled with getting to REALLY know my husband and having many arguments and fights while we spent many a night not sleeping, to realizing this is my family now. MY family. I am building my family and we have ups and downs and we get through it. It's been a year filled with breastfeeding and stressing out about my milk supply to giving Maya her first piece of cheese and watching her chew with her big beautiful teeth. It's been a year of watching my body go through drastic changes from having a vaginal delivery to recovering from those stitches down there, to watching my boobs get full of milk, to having a baby use my boob for nourishment, to finally having sex again, and now, now... having another baby in my belly and going through the same pregnancy symptoms again. Amazing.

I will always embrace my little Maya for who she is and for who she will become. She is SO loved unconditionally. HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY beautiful baby girl!!! We love you.

Nauseous

I am 9 weeks and 5 days pregnant today. We saw little junior moving its arms and legs, so amazing! I had Maya with me in the room and she was crying, and wanting to leave-- but I sat there thinking how in less than 8 months (G-d willing) she will have a sibling. This is still so unreal to me. Pinch me.

I am so nauseous. Man. It is bad! I just threw up the pizza I had for dinner. My symptoms are the same as they were in my last pregancy. No meat, just dairy, dairy, and dairy. And the nausea is BAD.

But it's all good. I don't look pregnant, I don't feel any kicks yet, so it's the nausea and these ultrasounds that remind me of this amazing gift I have growing in my belly.

Please G-d keep this baby healthy and growing strong.