Life...

Well we are days away from Maya turning 11 months old. She truly can turn any bad mood, into a smile. She is amazing, so full of personality and non-stop talking. She says MAMA all the time and she can stand and clap all by herself! She is mushy and delicious and she is becoming my best buddy.

On another note....
I admit I am TERRIFIED for Tuesday's ultra sound. I don't feel pregnant at all. I am tired, but was I this tired before? I don't know. I was nauseous yesterday but then not today. My boobs are not sore at all. I had some cramps the other day and my acupuncturist said that is normal. I guess it doesn't really matter, bottom line is I need to wait till Tuesday. I so want this baby -- more than anything, I want it for Maya. I want her to have a lifelong friend she can count on unconditionally. It is so important to me that she have this.

My fear is literally making me want to throw up right now, I am SO SCARED.

I am going to the appointment alone. Dave will be with Maya at home. What do I do if it's bad news?

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET THIS BABY BE HEALTHY.