One Year

We just returned from a trip to Cape Cod. I love it there so much. There is something about the smell of fried seafood in the air, lighthouses in the distance and that cool, crisp air that just makes me feel so relaxed and alive.

A year ago this week we had just come back from the same trip. It was also the first time we had been able to try again after the miscarriage and I had felt so sad that auntie flo had shown herself on that trip, leaving me with those uneasy thoughts of what if it takes another year or longer to get pregnant again. I hated that time.

But then I got pregnant- somehow, the following month. And now I am a mother. I still can't believe it, it still doesn't feel like this is my life. Sometimes I feel like I am just babysitting. Is she really mine? How lucky I am.

This year we returned to the Cape as a family of three.

Here she is-- my little Maya, 3 months old at the beach in Cape Cod. She is SO loved.